Happy new year, to one and all. I am going to keep this post short and sweet.

 I’m starting this year off in an entirely different way to how I could have ever imagined. I didn’t expect to get diagnosed with cancer, I didn’t expect to have had major surgery, I didn’t expect to have started chemo, and I certainly didn’t expect to feel so much fear, anger and frustration.

I never set new years resolutions, because the way I see it, you want a change just go ahead and make it. However, I do want to set myself some goals and targets now I am starting to feel a little stronger after surgery. My idea is to look back at these goals at the end of the year and see how many I have been able to achieve, with no pressure on myself to do them all in a rush.

 

Goal 1

To manage a walk of more than a mile without a break, I can’t do this at the moment still due to tightness around my scar area and tiredness from the chemo.

Goal 2

Get back to the gym, and start bowling again, do the things I love that keep me active.

Goal 3

Have a holiday,  both in our caravan and abroad.

Goal 4

Work on my fear of going out alone and being alone, fear of an adrenal crisis is not a reason to not live my life in an enjoyable way.

Goal 5

Get back on the Guide Dogs ready to train waiting list.

 

I want to be social, I want to be happy and I want to be, as much as I can be, healthy.  Fear is to be expected with a cancer diagnosis and mood is sure to fluctuate with all the appointments and treatment that goes along with it. But I don’t want to live my life in constant fear, I want to let myself feel how I am feeling but  also celebrate little victories and remind myself daily what  I am grateful for. 

 

 

I hope that this year is kind to you and whatever you do you find happiness and success in it.