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What will your life be like in three years? That’s a hard question to answer when I live with a cancer that has about a 50% mortality rate. While it’s true that nobody knows exactly when they will die, it feels like quite a difficult topic for me. It’s something I’m working on. I find,…
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What is your favorite form of physical exercise? The honest answer is that I don’t know anymore. Pre cancer and pre the struggles with my mental health, I used to walk a lot, go to the gym, I loved my aqua aerobics class. I would go almost every day. But surgery, feeling so poorly and…
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What have you been working on? Well the thing I’m working on most and the thing I have been working on since July 2023 when I had a stay in a mental health hospital has been my mental health. It’s ongoing and it’s hard. It takes a lot of my energy, and a lot of…
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What is your favorite hobby or pastime? I have lots of hobbies. I play ten pin bowling, I play a blind sport called showdown, I like crafting, climbing and researching my special interests and I love writing this blog  But when I’m depressed I lose sight of all my hobbies. This weekend I saw…
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I have been so busy, I feel like I have let things lapse a little with my blog. Although its actually only been a week since I last uploaded! I am quite hard on myself and need to remind myself that actually I do this blog for fun and there is nothing saying that I…
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It is a week ago today that I called off the match with little pup. I feel confident within myself that it was the right decision, but it is still a painfully hard one. I had to think with my heart and not with my head. I feel as though I am grieving a future…
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I have had a lot of people tell me lately how well I am coping with everything, and that I am so positive. This is very kind, however not entirely true. Since October, life has been hard. Really hard, and the truth is I am not coping well, that is not to say I am…
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Six months ago today I had life changing and life saving surgery. A grapefruit size cancer was removed from my  abdomen – wow six months!!
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Something I have learned since being diagnosed with cancer and having my operation is that I am not very good at managing my expectations and I put a lot of pressure on myself to be busy and productive all the time. I came home from hospital and fully anticipated that I would be up ad…
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It wasn’t long, and the appointment to meet with the endocrinologist was just days away. I was feeling slightly apprehensive, it just felt so uncertain, so unknown. It was scary to be honest. Id also begun to recognise since my appointment quite how often my heart would race. This wasn’t even when I exserted myself, sometimes I would just…
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