This is an off topic(ish) blog post. But I’m going away for the weekend and so want to get in something to go up while I am away. This is something that’s been on my mind a lot recently.

It probably wont come as much  of a shocker but my mood has been pretty low since my diagnosis in October. One thing I am trying to do is to put in my diary, regular things to look forward to, to break up the monotony  of hospital appointments and chemo. So I thought I would share a few of the upcoming things I have planned, because it is hard sometimes to find the good things when everything sems so bad.

I will start with this weekend, my partner has been doing some ancestry  research and found that her distant (and I mean distant, we are talking 1500s) ancestors had a castle, an actual castle!! So, we are off to see it and pretend its ours, haha.

We also have a few stand up shows, we love going to watch stand up, Russell Howard, Romesh Ranganathan, Chris McCausland, Russell Kane and the most exciting, Peter Kay!!!!

For Christmas I got Girls Aloud tickets! Ten year old me would not believe her luck!

I also have the British Blind Sport Ten Pin Bowling final, myself and my amazing team, Blind Ambition, made it to the national finals before my diagnosis, and while I am definitely  way out of practise, I am looking forward to it, and hopefully not doing too badly.

We also have our annual trip away for Vegan Camp Out, something we are both immensely excited for, there is a great line up this year, including Kate Nash, Chris Packham and Earthling Ed.  Although I am hoping for better weather than we had last year!

I also have the annual conference  for patients living with rare endocrine conditions, including Adrenal Cancer, where I am looking forward to meeting with other people living with the same cancer, I already feel like I have a supportive virtual group of friends from the group and it’ll be so nice to meet some of them in person.

When every day feels the same, and like its an effort to get through having things booked in helps. Not every thing has to be as big, or significant, but I am trying to take some time each week to switch off.  Even if that’s just watching the Monday night quizzes with my partner on TV, or taking a walk with Willow and a good podcast.

Reminding myself of the positive things is hard at the moment but there certainly are positive things.