It would be fair to say that since October, when I was diagnosed, I haven’t been particularly  happy. Things have been hard and I haven’t really had a moment where I just relax and forget about everything that has been going on.

Its not through lack of trying either, but things are just hard, cancer, chemo, appointments and medication rules my life and having a break isn’t so simple. But I did have a break, in a way last week. It was not only a welcome break but the happiest I have been since all this kicked off, so let me tell you about it.

I have mentioned before, in a previous blog post, that I play tenpin bowling with my local  group for visually impaired  people as part of the British Blind Sport league. Well, last year, before I got ill my team made it to the national finals to be held in Sheffield!

Nerves were high before, would I be well enough? Would I make it through the whole time? If I didn’t my team would not qualify – and I didn’t want to let anyone down. My energy levels are pretty low at the moment and I am very limited in what I can do, this would be the most I had done in a very long time. 

But, I did it, not only did I play all 8 games, but I got spares and strikes in all my games, and didn’t play too badly at all. Not as good as I was pre-surgery and chemo, but not bad none the les.

The following day was the awards ceremony where I honestly didn’t expect to win anything, but was ready to cheer on those who had been lucky enough to win, but alas, I was wrong.

My amazing team, made up of myself and two friends  won a trophy! We came top of our division. Of course these things are not about winning, but you have to admit it makes for a much better time when you do, ha ha.

I skipped chemo for two days while I was away, and had such a good time, like I said not having felt so happy since all of this began that coming home and getting back into the routine of chemo every night, plus recovering physically, I am VERY tired, has been a difficult  adjustment. I am trying to be gentle with myself and hold on to the wonderful memories I made and the fantastic achievement I had at the BBS national bowling finals.

What I will say though, is it has taken me quite a long time to recover I’m still struggling now. The fatigue is next level! I’m just taking it day by day at the moment until I feel a little bit better, lots of cuddles with the animals on the sofa for now